Sunday, December 16, 2007

.Frustration, Love, and Loneliness.



It is so easy to find problems yet so difficult to figure out the best way to fix it.

And, although we may fit perfectly with that one person that has been there all the time, we get tangled in the mystery of someone new.

Why is it considered such a bad thing to be alone?


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I feel like I am fighting a battle within my own self.
None of us seem to know what we want!
The moments we do are so temporary.
At the same time, life would be boring if our initial goals were permanent.

In the midst of all this rambling inside my head, God is whispering, Trust me. Let me take you through the twists and turns. The journey is what will turn you into solid gold.

Psh, I mean, of course He's right! I know He's right...there is evidence in my own life; in the history of all civilization for goodness sake!

Ohh the frustrations of life.

I am convinced that love is the most formidable catalyst for human struggle...
Sometimes I simply feel desperate to look that person in the eye and say exactly what I have been storing up in me, but I have only ever experienced the outpour of a fetid can of worms as a result.
Take note: this theory of mine is not restricted to romantic love or feelings.

I have reached a conclusion that wisdom comes in keeping your mouth shut.
Not in a way that everything gets bottled up inside (though that is a risk factor),
but with a motive of praying it through and thinking about the situation realistically before taking any steps.

Oh! But I long for progress! I long for a conclusion, a knowing, for a confirmation of mutual attraction or understanding!!

That will come. In My timing and in My plans, that will come.

Sometimes lonliness can spring from such situations.
I felt it last night.
But I don't get why people must wade in their lonliness until they get lost.
There is great gain once being alone is embraced.
In a lone environment, I finally have opportunity to catch up with my own soul.

Yes, God said, it is not good for man to be alone.
I am not saying to be a loner for life!
But take time to breathe!
It's fun to be with people all the time,
but the addiction is not worth having.
Especially if it is preventing growth or forward motion.


"When we have no project to finish,
no friend to visit, no book to read,
no television to watch or no record to play,
and when we are left all alone by ourselves
we are brought so close to the revelation of
our basic human aloneness and are so
afraid of experiencing an all-pervasive
sense of lonliness that we will do anything
to get busy again and continue the game
which makes us believe that everything is fine after all.
John Lennon says:
"Feel your own pain,"
but how hard that is!"
~Henri Nouwen

9 comments:

a girl named heather said...

dear sarah,

1. i like your use of the exclamation point. often a forgotten tool.

2. i like it when your soul catches up with itself. it encourages mine.

love,
heather

Klapyca Kvatulka, arba tiesiog Aina :) said...

wonderful post. wonderful blog. thank you! :)

Anonymous said...

I'm far better in competition than love; far better at responding to my instincts than figuring out other people, yet I've decided everyday to set aside what I do best & attempt to do what I do very clumsily; open myself to the frustrations of love.

caz

Sarah Renée said...

So glad you all are getting something out of my posts from ages ago!

Caz, I think we all have that initial struggle, tho it may be more intense for some than others. We all have an instinct to look out for ourselves, but I find myself going through the same thing you are right now– putting aside myself and becoming more open to loving others more (which usually means not living according to my own schedule anymore).

As a result of striving for this, I have also realized that I have nothing of my own to give because it was given to me through God when He created me with these gifts and personality type. But thankfully God is faithful and every time I seek Him and accept His love I am refilled and am capable to love each day :)

Anonymous said...

Your blog keeps getting better and better! Your older articles are not as good as newer ones you have a lot more creativity and originality now keep it up!

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Anonymous said...

Thanks i totally agree to praying it through as it has happened to me many times i felt so much pain and frustration, so incapable of dealing with the situation and so I sat and cried and prayed it through.